This is a first..

Yesterday morning (November 25, 2007), when I woke up, I went straight to our bathroom and did the usual morning ceremonies. Actually, the morning felt so nice coz it's been a while since i got to sleep at 3am and woke up at 1pm.

Then I proceeded to our Dinning Room since it was already lunch time and everyone else was eating some KFC. I started chewing the juicy chicken when suddenly..

..out of the blue, my mom said "Ay beh, patay na si tita daks.."

I paused for a moment and I was like "HA? ANU? SERYOSO BA YAN? KELAN PA? BAKIT?."
I can't help but ask! ask, ask, and ask!! That's all I was able to do!

Back then crying was not an option because we're all eating on the table. Sure, the news had an impact on my mind but not on my heart, yet.

So the day passed by like it was an ordinary day, but, of course, everyone was giving out an aura of sadness.

When the night came, as I was about to sleep, I remembered Tita Daks..
She was an old lady who, though married, doesn't have any children.
Very often she would come here at our house and chat with us. Do stuff like sewing our long pants and the likes. She would do anything of her abilities just to satisfy our needs for labor work.

I remember how she took care of me when I was sick and my mom was not here in Manila. I phone called her and immediately, she came over and gave me a warm body massage to relax my body. The next day, I got well.

I remember her coming here every time there's a party and she would help prepare all the needed materials and ingredients. She's a good cook!
Actually, I was waiting for her return from the province so I could again taste the delicious and mouth-watering Fried Rice that she makes.

Unfortunately, there's no more next time. I can't even recall now the last time I was able to savor the great taste of that food.. When she cooked that fried rice, she said that it was made just for us siblings and that it is of her very own special recipe. I felt the love on that food as I ate it. Really I did. and as I was remembering it, my eyes started to swollen and tears rolled down my cheeks.

I lost a mother..

I was breaking down..no doubt about it.

The feeling was an alien to me. Never did I experience losing someone who's very very very close to me. It was like, a piece of my glass heart was taken away from me by force. It was a big piece indeed.

Lastly, I remembered her...and her laugh..her very unique laugh..a laugh from her heart.. the tenderness of her voice..the amusement in her voice as she says "uwaahhh..." and "aha..ha..ha.. aray ginoo..!"


Oh GOD, why her!? We need her in our lives! No matter how much I make myself believe that if its the person's turn to go, she would be taken by the Lord and make her rest in peace eternally..still!!...call me selfish or whatever you want but i just want her back..

I Love You Tita Daks.
You'll remain in my heart forever.